graduating from college is letting me down. first i was talking with friends that agree with me in that its sort of anti-climactic. that instead of like graduating from high school, and knowing exactly what you’re going to do, we’re left with this feeling of “what now?” i’m not exactly sure how i’m taking it. but i think my oppinion of it is being shaped a little more clearly now. some of my friends are getting really bummed about leaving here, but knowing that they should. maybe i don’t feel too bad about leaving school, because i’m not really leaving. after school is over, i’m staying here. my “life after school” started about 2 years ago. i’m living now where i’m probably going to be living for a while. sure the exact location may change pretty soon, but i’ll still be around here. some of my other friends are taking off completely. i don’t know what to say to them because i left home for good a while ago. so i guess i’ve adjusted. i guess all i can say is good luck and keep in touch. i wish i could do more. its also becoming apparent to me that pretty soon, some people aren’t going to be in my life anymore. that makes me sad. it makes me wish i’d spent more time with them. every single person i’ve come into contact with in the last 4 years has had a serious impact on my life. not like they each shot my life off into a different direction or anything. more like my life was a partially completed sculpture, and each of these people added their own little touches and refinements to the base that was already there. some of these people are still going to be around, and we’ll probably be friends for life. i wish i could say for a certainty the same thing about the people leaving. but as much as i treasure these people and value their company, people drift apart as the years drift by. but then again, all the people i know are very different from other people. i have a feeling that something like distance isn’t going to be an issue, not with these people. expect more of these intro/retrospective blurbs in the next couple weeks. i’ve got a lot on my mind and if i let it all out at once i’m sure i’d just fall to pieces.
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