for some reason someone was directed to my site from a yahoo search for the phrase, “can you have sex every other day and get pregnant.” it brought up an older post, from about 6 months ago. i used to write long, rambly, kinda personal stuff in my blog back then. and it wasn’t that long ago. maybe i have less to complain about now. is it possible that things are turning around and i’m feeling better about my life? or is it that i just don’t have the energy to devote to that kind of ranting anymore? it could just be that i don’t really worry about the things i used to worry about, or maybe i just don’t care. i’m reaching a point in my life where many things will diverge from the path they’re on now. i’ll be leaving school, and probably not going to any more of it. hopefully i’ll be getting a job, and eventually moving to seattle, or closer to the city proper. once thats settled, buy a car, marry a girl, maybe start a family. i’ve said it before, and i’ll say it again, i’ll be 21 when i graduate with a B.S. in Computer Science, what the hell am i doing thinking about things that far ahead. for all i know i could die before any of that becomes and issue. i have a lot of work to do but i’m unmotivated. i seem to get this way near the end of every semester. i’m not suprised, just kind of annoyed. i want to get things done, because it would be really great to get done early, and just coast for a week or so. i don’t have any proper finals, so if i got stuff done, i’d be done with school a week early and i could sleep through finals week. that would be nice. that way i would be all rested and i could pick up my parents at the airport when they come for graduation. its been a few days since i last heard from that guy at microsoft. sadly i think my application there isn’t going to result in a job. i have about 4 weeks to resolve this issue of joblessness before real panic begins to set in. hopefully something will come up. the average time spent by someone with a degree looking for a job in seattle is 6 months. that is not comforting. i think i’m going to sleep now. hopefully i’ll wake up tomorrow and feel a bit motivated to get some things done. kat is coming over tomorrow, and i KNOW that will make me feel better. kat always makes me feel better. she understands the need to be babied every now and then. she understands that sometimes things just get overwhelming and you just need someone to be there and hold you. i like kat.
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